When you are standing at a crossroads

When you are standing at a crossroads

Every day we have these moments that might feel like a crossroad. Choices to make and steps to take. Some are small and other demand big. Some decisions are difficult to make, and others are easy. Depending on its influence on your current life, it will also be attached to your experiences. Either positive or negative, will have meaning in the outcome. All our lifetime experience is like walking on the line of a spiral.

We come across people or situations to assist us in moving on and taking steps forward. If it is attached to fear or anxiety, it will be more difficult to decide when you come to a crossroads that is demanding you to do it from a loving place within. Especially if this is a place filled with doubt or sorrow, anger or frustration about how you walk through life.

Do not travel far to other lands, forsaking your own sitting place; if you cannot find the Truth where you are now, you will never find it.
~*~ Dogen ~*~

This came to my attention and made me aware I am also at a crossroads again in my life. Not the first and will not be the last either. Along the way, there have been many moments where decisions had to be made. Some are easy, others difficult. All I ever could do was follow my Heart in these matters. Sometimes it was hard to do so because it came with a lot of insecurities. It can take a lot of bravery and courage at times to make the decision you fear the most.

Our fear of losing is one of the most powerful emotional energy no question about that. Fear of losing a loved one, fear of losing health, fear of pain, fear of abandoning. All these have found their way through my life. Sometimes it was so hard to deal with it brought up even more turmoil. Yet I know deep down I can only live my Life to the fullest if I can rely and trust on my Love.

My Love will be my guide, in any situation that might come in the future as well has been during this lifetime in the past and past lives. So now, in this moment, what is it, I fear? Am I ready to make the next step, and what does this step involve as well? Do not travel far to other lands, forsaking your own sitting place Dogen said. I know this is true. My own sitting place is always concentrated in my inner being, as well as the now moment.

Today waking up with this topic, about standing at a crossroads, I knew it was about me taking a next step. It also became clear to me, it is also about letting go, the energy of today is clear about this as well. Fear of letting go of the old, familiar ways. Familiar roles as well, as being the wife and mother, the grandmother and sister.

Some roles will never change, for they are such a major inner part of my being. Yet there is also this aspect of me that needs to explore, experience, and learn as well, as to teach. To be the loving healing spirit to the best I can be.

Listen to the part of you that is calling out for death and transformation. Receive its wisdom. Look for new people, new ideas and new directions. Forgive, let go. White Solar World-Bridger

The part of me that is calling out for death and transformation is the part that needs to let go of the old patterns I have created over the past 43 years. Not just about the death of my beloved, but it is also about the transformation that is been created by this experience for both of us. In his physical death, the new pattern is enfolding for me as well as for him. He will be on the healing way and will be this light being he always has been for me.

This changes everything within our relationship, for I need to be this light being as well, as to follow our soul’s destiny. In my own way, I have to let go, of the old beliefs and ways I have known myself. Is it time to face this change that is unfolding from within? I know my messages are always clear, either from High Self or Angel hints, it is always there to assist me in creating a new momentum in my Now, sitting here in my own space.

If there is any to forgive, then it is good Now to do so. I will be able to tap into this energy to allow it to bring up any lingering negative attachments; either persons or situations I have come across over my lifetime for the past 60 years. My inner knowledge and wisdom will assist me in doing just that. Because talking about death is also about letting go and releasing of ego as it were.

The ego aspect no longer serves me in my development and at my journey. I already initiated a new way that is close to my heart, or should I say, a familiar way that is not always understood.

Yet it represents my truth, my being, what makes my passion grow and my heart glow. Fear of losing has been part of this experience as well. Being the creator in my own life, I have to take responsibility. The past is what it is, the past. Nothing I can do or say will change these events, yet I can definitely change my own inner state in how to respond to these experiences. By forgiving and letting go, including my own part in it, it will create more space and freedom.

This crossroad is all about that. Releasing and letting go, forgiving and lovingly setting free any attachments that are holding me back, including my own well-known patterns as a wife, a mother, a grandmother, a sister, and a daughter. For it is, as Dogen says, if you cannot find the Truth where you are now, you will never find it.

The answers will come naturally, and the responses are clear this morning. Stepping out of my comfort zone again will enable me to regain more wisdom, and learn new people in my life bringing their gifts and new teachings reflected from my inner source. You have to do it, it doesn’t matter, do something. Someone told me long ago. The truth is in there. Especially standing at a crossroads, all you can do is something.

Even though it is not clear, which way I might be heading, all I know is, that it is coming from one place and one place only, Love. In every way, shape, or form, Love is always my guide, the master key in every moment that needs resolution. Step up, move through, allow, and acknowledge what comes up, and say I am sorry, please forgive me, I thank you and I love you. Then take the next step forward.

And so it will be done.

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